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Tuesday, July 13, 2010

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Sunday, July 11, 2010


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Thursday, July 8, 2010

Weigh In

I haven't posted a weigh-in in quite some time...well I haven't actually been posting anything at all lately, so I thought I would give you an update! I finally got my post wisdom teeth removal ice cream weight off, and was at 172.6 this morning. I am pretty happy about that considering the crazy & stressful last few weeks we have had!

I have been trying to create my new blog, and I am using a self hosted website this time...and it is much more complicated than I thought! So I have been spending too much time trying to figure it all out so that it is ready soon! Sorry that I have neglected this site lately!

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Good News

We got some great news today, so I am in a super mood! Life is about to get so much better and I'm about to have much more time to focus on my diet and exercise. That being said, this news will make dieting and exercise nearly impossible for the next 3 weeks or so. But I will be able to hit it hard in about a month and get back on track! Who knows...maybe I'll finally do P90X??? I have a Dr.'s appointment tomorrow so I'm going to talk to him about the HCG diet while I'm there. If he approves, I will probably be starting that sometime in the next few weeks as well.

So, I will be sharing my good news with my blogging buddies probably late next stay tuned. It will also coincide with my new blog. Which means I need to get to building a new website!!! Is everybody getting excited for the Holiday weekend? Any big plans? I am going to go see my family in MO and am super excited!

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Long Time No Post

I am still here...just haven't been on the internet much to speak of the last several days. Lots of craziness going on in our lives right now which means no time for blogging, and not the worlds best diet! I will explain more later...but I have to go to bed because we have not had more than 4 hours of sleep since last Thursday night and I am miserable! Hang in there with me...I swear I will be a good blogger again when life gets back to normal a bit!

Thursday, June 24, 2010


I am so ashamed of myself tonight! I overate to the point of complete misery for the first time in a long, long time. Don't get me wrong, I overeat from time to time (try very hard not to). But tonight it was to the point where I just want to throw up. I don't know why I do is the worst feeling ever! And I probably haven't done this in over a year. But we went to Carrabba's with some friends for a birthday, and I just ate, and ate, and ate until it was painful! So dumb and counterproductive! I am very disappointed in myself! I suppose it was a good reminder of why I don't do that though! To amke mattes worse, we didn't eat until 9:00. I typically eat dinner BY 6:00. I think it was a combination of my mouth hurting so bad I just want to cry, having a pretty crappy work week, and saying the hell with it cause I have ate like shit all week. I have to snap back into reality though! We have eaten out way too much this week and I have just made poor food choices all around. Tomorrow...back to normal portions and lower calories! I will probably gain 5 pounds over night just because of my stupidity...and that ain't gonna cut it!

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Mouth Update

I forgot to mouth is randomly killing me today! It's been a week now since I got my wisdom teeth removed, and I think today is the worst pain yet! I'm still eating soft foods mostly and I'm getting really burned out on the limited diet. OK, that's my complaining for the day...I feel like my mouth might explode!

Dr.'s Appointment

So I scheduled an appointment with my Dr. to discuss the HCG diet. He couldn't get me in until July 1st though...bummer! I know it isn't the 'right' way to lose weight...but as long as it's safe...I don't care! Phentermine wasn't the most popular choice either...but it got me a great start and I have maintained that weight loss for nearly 5 months now. I am a sucky dieter and I want the quick fix. There...I said it! If my doc says it is dangerous in any way, I won't do it...but I'm hoping he says it's safe. I actually talked to my mother in law about it last night because she is a nurse...and she was about to start it ironic!!! One of the Dr.'s at her hospital has just started offering it to his patients and are already seeing great results. He is a trusted family doctor too, so that's interesting to know.

I DO want to get to a healthy lifestyle where I eat better and most of all work out regularly! I WILL get there, but I really feel like it will be much easier to get there once the weight is gone. OK...that's my story & I'm stickin to it!

P.S. I have been working on my new blog a lot lately...hence the lack of effort on this one. I am really excited about it and I think you will all find it very interesting. Stay tuned for more details to come! :)

Thursday, June 17, 2010


Has anybody heard of the HCG diet? I heard about it for the first time tonight. A girl I know has lost 60 pounds on it so far and she was telling me stories of her family and friends that have done the same. Most people lose an average of a pound a day while on it. Now I realize it's not the smartest way to lose weight...but I'm wondering if it's worth it to just get the weight off and then work towards eating right and exercising to maintain. If it were to work for me...I could be at my goal weight in like 6 weeks! I'm still reading about it and have some of Skyler's female nurse friends checking into it for me. But let me know what you think if you've heard about it.

Like any 'fad' type diet, I worry about gaining the weight back after I get off of it because there's no way it's a long term lifestyle. However I have lost my first 50 pounds with the help of Phentermine, and I have been able to maintain it for several months now. Like I said, I'm thinking if after I get the weight off I can pick up the exercise again to help with maintaining. OK, these are my thoughts so far...I'm interested to see what you think!

Sick of Ice Cream

Yep, I am really sick of sweets! I had a milkshake for lunch yesterday, dinner yesterday, and ice cream for lunch today. I don't even like sweets that well to begin with, and I'm definitely ready for some real food! So much for losing weight...I'm just hoping I don't gain with all this crap I'm eating because it's my only option. I'm still feeling pretty good today though! I guess I got pretty lucky and don't have much pain. I would call it more of a sore or tenderness. It kind of feels like I just have a bruise on my jaw.

We rented a couple of movies at Red Box this morning so I'm just gonna take it easy again today because my pain meds make me really groggy. But I'm thinking I will work on some stuff around the house the next few days since I feel up to it. Hope everybody's having a good day!

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Feelin Good!

I'm so amazed and thankful! This isn't nearly as bad as I was anticipating! I have been nauseas a bit off and on, but that has really been it. I napped for about an hour, but have felt pretty normal all day. I'm craving a hamburger & French fries & Mexican food, but I've stuck with a milkshake for lunch and now I'm eating one for dinner. I'm so excited that I don't feel awful and can just enjoy a relaxing 4 1/2 days off of work while I recoup! All that worrying for nothing!!!

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Wisdom Teeth

I probably won't be posting for a few days because I am getting my wisdom teeth removed tomorrow afternoon. YIKES!!! I am so scared and really don't want to do it. But I've been putting it off for over a year now, so I decided to just schedule an appointment and get it over with! I am pretty much freaking out though. My mom is coming down to take care of me for the day because Skyler has to work. I always seem to want my mommy when I don't feel good anyways. So wish me luck! The one good thing that should come from it is that I expect that I will lose some weight with not being able to eat for a couple of days and all.

Monday, June 14, 2010

Float Trip & Camping Weekend

Oh what a weekend that we had! It was fun and definitely quite the interesting experience...

So we have a great river only about 15 minutes away; but the group we went with planned this float trip on a different river. We were originally told it was an hour away. When we showed up to meet everybody to caravan there, we were told that it is more like an hour and a half. 3 hours later, we arrived at our "camp site" a.k.a. a field with no running water or electricity or fire-pits.

Now don't get me wrong...I enjoy camping (ish)...but I'm just not much of a 'roughing it' kind of girl; especially for longer than one 2 nights was a bit excessive. Skyler and I were actually the only two from the entire group of 9 that stayed until Sunday morning! One of the couples left as soon as we got off of the river Saturday night. Then one of the girl's peaced out at about 11:00 after she tried to sleep in her hot, muggy tent with a sunburn. At 3:00am one of the other couples and the other 2 girls packed up and headed home because they weren't sleeping anyway. It was so stinkin hot at humid and we all felt completely filthy that we were pretty much over it by that point. Sky and I stuck it out until 6:00am Sunday just because we didn't want to risk driving home on windy roads that we were unfamiliar with in the middle of the night. But as soon as the sun came out we hit the road!

The canoe trip was pretty fun and relaxing. The river was super muddy though because of the rain earlier in the week so my new swimsuit (that was half white) is now brown. We laughed a lot though and only tipped once. We had a 3 canoe pile-up because we floated the entire trip all connected. It worked great until we all panicked when we were headed for a stump in the water. Some of us decided to let go and some decided to hang on, so the indecisiveness caused a wreck! It was pretty funny...but I am still finding new bruises all down the right side of my body where I was smashed between two canoes.

I actually didn't eat or drink bad this weekend at all. The only downfall was that I ate late both nights. I was very good about watching my portions though, and really wasn't that hungry (I took my diet pill both days). I drank a few beers Friday night, but didn't drink at all on Saturday. Did I mention that the bus that was supposed to come get us and take us to the river didn't happen so we had to drive there? I was the DD and didn't drink that day because I wasn't really in the mood to anyways. My worst eating was actually yesterday, and that was just because we were exhausted and ate out when we got home. But all-in-all, it was a successful weekend in diet land considering the circumstances!

I feel like I've spent this whole post bitching about the negatives of the weekend. We seriously did have a blast...and these stories are just funny more than anything. We will definitely be planning next years trip much differently though. It will be nearby at a real camp site with water and we will stay for one night. After the float trip we will be coming home to the air conditioning and a shower! We had a great time with some great friends and made some memories that I'm sure we will be talking about for years!

Friday, June 11, 2010

New Lowest Weight

I did hit a new number today! I was really hoping to see 172, but I gave in and ate 2 pieces of cheese last it didn't go quite that low. I did get to 173.2 I'm happy. It's a new low number for me, which is a step in the right direction...right?! I am so excited for our camping and float trip! It will be a blast!

I have to go shopping to get a few things for the weekend, and while I'm out I'm going to buy a couple of things for my weight loss to begin using next week. I have read 2 or 3 blogs this week that swear by the 30 Day Shred video, so I think I'm gonna give it a whirl. I really want to do P90X some day and am disappointed that I haven't yet. But it just doesn't fit into my crazy life right now. But I do believe the 20 minute 30 Day Shred video will fit in perfectly (if I just make it). The only thing is that Jillian Michaels drives me nuts, but so does Tony Horton, so I guess I'll deal with it. I am also going to get the heart rate monitor that Dacon suggested at Target. I have been wanting to get one and have put it off because I didn't know what to get. I think it will help to keep me motivated on my outside runs and give me number goals to go by.

This will be my last post till Sunday or Monday. I hope everybody has a great weekend! Hopefully I won't gain too much weight back, but I'm not counting on it...we're going to party it up!!!

Thursday, June 10, 2010

What a Crappy Week!

Wow this week has been stressful times 10! We got another offer on our house and negotiated back and forth and finally came to an agreement...but they backed out today before they signed the final papers. They wanted us to give even more than we already had agreed to, and we just had to draw the line somewhere. I have a splitting headache I'm so beyond frustrated and exhausted! So now we're back at square one...again!

I stuck to my Fruit & Veggie cleanse today...kinda. It was more like I just didn't eat today. Didn't plan for that, but I'm just too stressed and overwhelmed to eat. I had a couple of cherry tomatoes and grapes, but that's been about it. When I got home Sky wanted to go to pizza and I was about to give in. I had even gotten undressed to change and I stepped on the scale first and it appears that I will hit a new number tomorrow if I stick to my guns tonight. So I put my PJ's on and plan to go to bed early to avoid all the temptations of pizza and ice cream running through my head!

I know this is a lame way to lose weight...but I'll take whatever I can get right now. Especially when it comes to being in a bikini in 2 days! I know I will gain it all back this weekend too by drinking too much beer, but what do you do?! I have found though that once I see a number on the scale, it seems easier to hit it that's a plus. I'll hopefully find a new weight on that scale in the morning and then hopefully get back to it again next week.

Oh long weekend...thank you for finally getting here!!!

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Fruit & Veggie Fast Tomorrow

I MUST do a fruit and veggie fast tomorrow. I actually really want kind of hits the spot from time to time. And I really need to drop a couple of pounds overnight, since I just keep maintaining and not losing. I figured I would post it on here to keep myself honest!

Monday, June 7, 2010

Float Trip Prep Week

OK people...we are going on our big camping and float trip this weekend so I need to get serious! I have to wear my new bikini in front of a lot of people! I'm thinking if I could see a new number on the scale by Friday...even just 172...I will be more encouraged to not F it up completely over the weekend with an abundance of beer, hot dogs, & s'mores! Time to focus and make smart choices! Here's to a successful week in weight loss land...

Saturday, June 5, 2010

Longest Run to Date

As I promised Skyler, I have started running outside with him. We went Thursday and I jogged about 3/4 of a mile of the 2.5 miles. I walked the rest, and was pretty proud of myself. I had mixed feelings on running outside. I really enjoyed the scenery much more than what I get on the treadmill, but I really struggled with keeping my pace. I am a numbers girl, so it really helps me on the treadmill to have a set pace and just count down the time. It was also extremely hot when we ran on Thursday because we went out at 5:30. So between the beaming sun, my first time running outside, and a varied pace...I wasn't sure I was sold on outside runs.

I went out last night for a girls night to a Japanese restaurant and then to watch Sex and the City 2. So I didn't run, but we had a blast! And I actually ate pretty healthy at the restaurant. I ordered sushi first, which is low calorie. Then I ordered the steamed rice instead of fried and shared my entree with one of the other girls. Even after sharing I only ate about half of my meal and brought the rest home for Sky.

I was actually looking forward to running tonight. Sky got off of work at 7:30 and we changed and headed out. It was so much nicer to run later in the evening once it wasn't so stinkin hot! Skyler lead us tonight and set the pace which helped tremendously. I also worked on my posture tonight which felt a million times better (I have a terrible posture and Sky pointed out on Thursday that it was even more exaggerated when I ran).

The first 5 minutes sucked, like they always seem to. Then I started feeling pretty good and the next 10 minutes went by so quickly, which was way better than the treadmill. Then the last 5 minutes kinda started hurting. So I ran for 20 minutes straight tonight...5 minutes longer than what I have done previously!!! I was pretty stoked. We did the same route again, which is just shy of 2.5 miles. I walked for the first couple of minutes to warm up then jogged 20 minutes, walked 10, jogged 2, then walked the last 2 or 3 minutes. My legs are so sore! But I am so proud of myself. It ended up being 2.5 miles in about 38 minutes, not very fast, but definitely better than sitting my ass on the couch all night! And to make it even better, I skipped dinner because I wasn't hungry and didn't drink the Corona I was maybe the scale will head back in the right direction???

I felt really good tonight, like "man, I'm kind of enjoying this" so I hope that feeling sticks around. I really, really need and want to get into the 150's by August. I won't make my goal of 140 by then, but really hope I can get to the 150's and into my size 10's again (I'm 5'7"). I am so freakin sick of my clothes. I have 2 pairs of shorts that fit right now...not fun when it's 90+ degrees out and I have to wear jeans because my shorts are both dirty. And I still refuse to buy new clothes until I hit my goal. I don't want to just waste my money on something that hopefully won't fit for long.

I have salad makin's and grilled chicken and baked potatoes in the house, so I plan to eat healthy all day tomorrow. My mom came down tonight and we're going to lay by the pool after church tomorrow, so it is shaping up to be another good weekend! Oh...and I also made it up and back from MO today. I spent a couple of hours working on the garage again, and made descent progress. Hope everybody else is having a great weekend!

PS: I would love to hear any tips for helping to keep a steady pace when running outside. It seems like when a good song comes on my iPhone I speed up, and then quickly wear out! :)

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Bought a Bikini

This weekend was so great! It was just what Sky and I needed...a chance to have fun for a change! We got our work out of the way Friday night and Saturday. We had to go to MO to clean out our garage and meet with a realtor. One more hard day and the garage will be completely organized...finally! And we are listing the house with a realtor, so hopefully it will sell soon.

We didn't work out on Saturday, but cleaning the garage in the heat and lifting boxes all day was work enough! We got a couple of chores out of the way Sunday morning, then lounged by the pool and cooked out with some friends. On Monday morning we got up and played 9 holes of golf. We walked the course, so that was a good 2 1/2 hours worth of a mild work out in the heat. Then we spent the rest of the day Monday lounging by the pool and watching a movie! This weekend was so great!!! I just wish it could have lasted longer!

My downfall this weekend was my food choices! I'm back to my old game of working all week to get my weight down to 173, then eat like shit all weekend and gain it back. Such a waste of time and so disappointing! I don't know what it's going to take to get my act in gear anymore!

I did buy a bikini this weekend...and actually wore it! Not that I should have! I am definitely still too big for a bikini. Sky was giving me a hard time because he is sick of me wearing my old lady full pieces so he pretty much forced me to buy one. :) It is actually really cute and I don't look too awful in it. It is one with thicker sides (like 2-3 inches) and comes up a bit higher to cover more of my gut. I am contemplating just wearing it around the house at night just to remind myself why it's not worth eating like crap!

I really wish I could get a boost of motivation that I had from August through January to get the rest of this weight off! I know exactly why I'm not losing weight, and I don't seem to consistently be doing anything about it! Ugh! Why couldn't I have just been born with a killer metabolism???

Thursday, May 27, 2010

Supportive Husband

Sooo...we have a float trip coming up in two weeks...

I was really hoping to be bikini ready by then...not gonna happen. I'm just hoping I can drop a few more pounds and look not so terrible in front of everybody. I haven't done as good this week as I did last, but have still been maintaining around 175. Gosh I just know if I could make myself get into the 160's I will be on fire again!

The good news is that Skyler is finally back on the supportive wagon. He is super tall and linky, so he can eat whatever he wants. Because of this, he actually struggles with eating healthy too. He has started running again this week though and keeps asking me to go with him. I told him I will definitely start working out with him this weekend. It would be nice if we could both be motivated at the same time. It would make life so much easier!

Monday, May 24, 2010

Sisters Weekend

I had a GREAT weekend! My sister's came down and we had a blast! We got to do everything we had planned...which never happens!

I took off of work Friday afternoon so when they got here we went to lunch and then got pedi's together. Then we went grocery shopping and bought tons of fruits and veggies!

We slept in on Saturday which felt oh-so-good, then got around and went shopping all day! I bought some new earrings and flip flops and the girls both got really cute swim suits. We came back to the house Saturday night worn out so we hit the hot tub and relaxed!

After we slept in again on Sunday, we laid out by the pool all afternoon until they had to leave. It was such a beautiful day...felt like the first true "summer day". I even got a little sun burned!

We didn't eat super healthy this weekend, but were very strategic about when we ate our unhealthy meals. We made sure to have our big meals at like 3:00 each day, and then in the evenings we just munched on veggies and fruit that we cut up Friday night. I didn't even drink alcohol this weekend either! The only thing we didn't do was exercise; however, we walked around the outdoor mall all day Saturday!

I gained a couple of pounds back this weekend, but nothing like I have been doing. So it wasn't a complete success, but at least partial. I can't wait to get to the 160's...hopefully this week or next! Here goes another week of struggles and hopefully successes!

Thursday, May 20, 2010

NEW Weight!!!

Yep! It's True! I officially hit a new number on the scale for the first time in over 3 months!!! 173.8! I got down to 174 point something this winter, but I've finally broken that boundary! I think it's finally clicking with me again...I have just had an easier time dealing with my struggles this week! I just have to stay focused and keep it going. I'm pretty motivated now I think I'm back on track again! Thank God! Swim suit season is knocking on the door!

So here's what I have been doing the last few months that I have to avoid:
Monday's I weigh in after a less than perfect weekend and am disappointed in myself so I decide, this is the week...I'm gonna get back on track. I eat good Monday, Tuesday, & Wednesday. By Thursday my weight is back down again. I feel proud, and cocky, and like I deserve a break. Usually by Thursday I am tired so I treat myself to a less than ideal dinner. Then Friday rolls around. My weight is still in line (meaning not as high as it was on Monday). I go to my usual lunch at Abuelo's, then come home after a long week and have a couple of beers, and eat whatever the hell I feel like. Then it's the weekend. So Saturday & Sunday I have an F-it attitude and eat/drink what I want. I of course avoid the scale on those days. By the time Monday rolls back around, I'm ashamed and step on the scale to see the damage. And so the cycle continues! Not this week though!!!

I haven't beaten myself up over it too much because I was still maintaining in the high 170's to low 180's. But I was becoming discouraged because I knew I still had plenty of weight to lose. This week, it somehow clicked and I beat that stupid number and I feel pretty empowered.

Earlier this week I read Annie's post about being honest with herself, and it really struck a chord with me. I have known for the past 3 months what my problem was. I know why I haven't been losing weight. I spend my weeks just doing enough to maintain. I haven't been doing what it takes to lose. So it's not really fair for me to bitch about not losing weight, when I know why I'm not. In all fairness, I was ok with a stand still for a while. I was tired of dieting, and it felt good to just not think about it constantly. But I have been feeling pretty antsy to get back at it the last few weeks, and I really just needed that push to get me motivated again.

I really think/hope that seeing a new pound was just what I needed. I'm a bit nervous because my sister's are coming down for the weekend which usually means junk food and wine (for the two of us that are over 21). But I think we will be good this time! Laura has been losing weight too and also hit a new number this morning, so we both have tons of motivation to not slip up. We are going to go to a couple of restaurants while they are here, but we have already decided it will be for lunches and we will SHARE so that we don't over-indulge. And like I've mentioned before, she is a work-out-aholic so she can't wait to have me limping around in pain!

It is going to be very difficult (if not impossible) to hit my goal weight of 140 by August, but I'm going to try my darndest. I can at least get really close if I stay focused and get back to making smarter choices. I haven't been counting calories this week, just being smart. I think I'm gonna go with that for a while and see if it can keep working. Counting calories always helps to keep me honest, but it also just pisses me off because it takes so much time. Wish me luck! I need this to be the time I get back on the diet wagon until I reach my goal!

Monday, May 17, 2010

Family Fun Weekend

I have been the world's worst blogger lately! I don't write regularly anymore...and I haven't even been doing anything write-worthy. So I will try to get better...but I'm just still in a rut. Enough of that nonsense...

We had a fantastic (but busy) weekend. We went to both of our mom's houses in Missouri to celebrate mother's day a week late. I actually didn't eat too awful...considering. I even skipped the apple crisp and used a small plate for my dinner so I couldn't load it down. I didn't work out any, but I see that changing in my near future. My sister's are coming down this weekend for a girls weekend...and Laura is a freakin hoss! She does crossfit and competes in power lifting, so she will kick my ass. She is going to run outside with me, which I have really been wanting to try. And she wants to try some of my P90X videos.

I'm still fighting to get my motivation back; every day...but it's still slow goin. Don't give up on me...I'll figure it out someday!

Thursday, May 13, 2010

Just Feeling Down

I'm still here and reading your blogs...just haven't been keeping up with my writing. I've just been so down lately. With the whole house thing, and just feeling overwhelmed, and then some other news that wasn't what I wanted to hear...I just can't seem to pick myself up! The good news is that I HAVE been eating healthy and my weight is on the decline (slowly, but steadily). I am hoping to see a new number by next week, which will probably put me in a good mood again. For dinner tonight I made spaghetti with spaghetti squash instead of pasta...and I am not a fan. I liked the squash on its own...but don't like it as a pasta substitute. I ate it though because it was like no calories and was filling. I can't wait to see the look on Sky's face when he eats dinner after he gets home. He will most likely be making a trip to McDonalds! haha!

I have been doing some mild exercise. Still not P90X, but at least a little bit here and there. We have a super busy weekend ahead of us. We are driving to MO to do mother's day since we didn't get to go last weekend. So we will be at my mom's on Saturday and Sky's mom's on Sunday. Sounds pretty exhausting, but should be fun at least. Well, it's only 7:00, but I think I'm about to go to bed! I'm completely exhausted, and just need to get some rest so I can turn this frown upside down (yes...I am a nerd!).

Monday, May 10, 2010

Making a Come-Back

Yep! It's true...I'm making a come-back. I didn't post this weekend because I didn't want to make anymore promises that I wouldn't follow through with. So rather than doing that, I acted first and will now update you on my gradual progress. Not much to write home about yet, but I'll take gradual progress over my recent regression any day!

I ran on Saturday for 15 minutes, 1.38 miles straight at 5.5 speed on the treadmill!!! It's been a while since I ran last; and I have only gone for 15 minutes a few times. So not too shabby for being a bit rusty! When I went to the gym I was just hoping to run for 5 minutes with a 3 minute walk, 3 times. When I hit the 5 minute mark I was just starting to get into my groove and still feeling ok so I decided to go to 8. Still felt good at 8 so thought I would keep going to 10 minutes. Once I hit 10 I still felt like I had more in me so I committed myself to do 15 minutes. I pretty much thought I was going to die from 12 minutes on, but I kept pushing myself to make it happen. It always amazes me what a total body workout running is. I was sore everywhere the next day! I am proud of myself for getting back to the gym! I really want to get to where I can run a 5K at 6mph, or 30 minutes. I know that is not very fast. But for me, I will be more than thrilled if I can do that once a week.

Sky & I were going to play golf tonight, but we are in a Tornado Watch and it is way too windy, so that didn't pan out. We will either play tomorrow, or I will run again. Depends on the weather I suppose.

I ate like shit this weekend, and felt very gross and unfulfilled from it! Two different times I thought to myself "Why did I do this?!", "It wasn't worth it!". So after my McDonald's lunch on Sunday I decided to stop that crap and I finished the day out good and ate pretty good today. I am working on a meal plan and grocery list to go shopping tomorrow and get real food back in the house. We did a great job of cleaning out the freezer and pantry...but now there is nothing to eat!

Moving in the Right Direction
Like I said...I didn't make any drastic changes yet; but I did take a couple of steps in the right direction, and feel pretty good about it. I was feeling down last week and this weekend after we found out that the lady backed out on the house, so I sulked for a few days. But now I'm re-focusing again I think. I even told Skyler no when he suggested ice cream tonight! :) I just pray that the fire lights back under my rear again soon and I start doing what it takes to see the results I want to see. Here's to a positive week with a good attitude!

Thursday, May 6, 2010

Bad BAD Day!!!

So work sucked...nothing new. What was new and made my day awful is that the lady purchasing our house backed out. I cried 3 times before noon between work and this whole ordeal. I feel like I'm just at my breaking point these days. I don't know how much more stress I can handle! That's it for today. Sorry for the crappy blog lately. I am just out of energy.

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

All I Do Is Work!

Man I am exhausted! I thought this week was going to get easier...but no such luck. Some people are just plain stupid and make my life harder than it needs to be! This is going to be a quick one because I just got home and haven't eaten yet, but I just want to give ya a quick update.

I haven't been eating great this week, but not too bad either. Just descent. Yesterday I had a Fiber One Bar for breakfast, Turkey Sandwich for lunch and some leftover pasta for dinner.

Today I had a Fruit Smoothie for Breakfast and I made some A-M-A-Z-I-N-G Lemon Rosemary Chicken for lunch with Boiled Carrots and Mashed Potatoes. It was so, so, so good!

I'm trying my darndest to not make bad choices when I'm stressed out and tired and frustrated. All I want is a beer, pizza, and a milkshake. But I have been doing pretty good at staying strong and making good choices. I really do have to find it in myself to get more motivated to lose weight. But I'm happy to at least not be gaining when things seen to be so overwhelming.

Regarding exercise, I have played some golf, but that's about it. No excuses...just haven't motivated myself yet. It really bums me out that I am being a slacker and wasting time...but I just can't seem to care enough to do what it takes. I will get there...I promise!!!

Monday, May 3, 2010

Short Weekend

I hate working on Saturday's! It makes my weekend way too short! That being said, it was a pretty fabulous weekend though from Saturday night on. We went to the 3rd Annual Bug Boil (Crawfish Boil). We got to see some friends we haven't seen in a while and we laughed and talked all night! I actually didn't eat too bad on Saturday, but I did have a few glasses of wine at the party.

Sunday was spent catching up on a few things around the house, and then we went to some friends' house for a cookout. We had a lot of fun, and I kept my eating under control again. The only bad thing was that we ate a bit later than I try to, but still not awful.

And for the best news of the weekend...We got an offer on our house on Saturday!!! It went under contract on Sunday, and so now it's just a waiting game until closing! This should help relieve some major stress in our lives. I can't imagine what it will feel like to only have one home to keep up with!

I didn't make great food choices today. Mostly just dinner. I had decided to skip dinner because it was getting late and Sky hadn't made it home yet. But he had another idea. He talked me into going out for "celebration pizza". I had 3 pieces with some ranch and a Corona. Stupid!

Tomorrow is going to be a ridiculously crazy day! I have an appointment pretty much from 11:30 - 5:00...yikes! I will probably be drained when I'm done, but Sky and I have plans to play 9 holes of golf. I'm really getting into it this year, and I hope I play well! My lesson is Wednesday, so I'm hoping one more day of practice will be beneficial.

Weigh In

My 1st of the month weigh in on Saturday wasn't too bad; 176.2. I want to start losing weight again, but am very proud that I have maintained the last couple of months at least. My Dr. was actually very proud of me the other day and said she was just happy to see that it didn't go up. I'll be back tonight to update on the weekend. Have a great Monday everybody...or at least make the best of it considering it is Monday and all...

Friday, April 30, 2010

I Suck!

So I didn't post last night mostly because I was ashamed and embarrassed. I don't really want to right now either, for the same reasons, but one purpose of this blog is to hold myself accountable. So here goes...I haven't re-started P90X yet. I know, I suck! My excuse is that I was/am exhausted and last night I had a splitting headache because I was a moron and didn't eat all day until 4:00. But, those are just excuses, not acceptable reasons.

I do not know what my problem is this time. As I have said before, I usually get so addicted to working out and push so hard that I burn myself out. But for some reason this time around I can't seem to get motivated to work out for nothin! It's lame...but I just don't wanna! I much prefer coming home and putting my feet up on the couch and relaxing. (So say's the fat girl)

I have a sneaking suspicion that the main culprit holding me back is time; or lack thereof. To make it all work, I have to manage to eat dinner at work at around 4:00 so it has time to settle. By the time I get off of work around 5:15 or so and get home and change and head to the gym, it's around 6:00. Then, it's 7:30 by the time I finish the typical hour and a half P90X daily workout routine. Then another 30 minutes to an hour pass as I get back home, catch my breath for a minute, take a shower, and get ready for bed. So then I have from 8:30 - 11:00 while my hair dries to plan & prepare meals for the next day, blog, catch up on any house work/laundry/bills, get clothes laid out for the next day (Sky is a peach & irons them for me), and oh a bit and watch some TV. And with this, I'm still going to bed later than I would like to because by Friday I'm running on fumes.

Now, is this just me complaining about a problem that everybody else in the world has to deal with too??? YES! And I realize that. But do you cope with it? I mean I don't even have kids yet either! In all fairness though, we do have 2 houses in 2 different states we are trying to maintain which is exhausting. But everybody else has things that make their life busy, and they suck it up and manage to get their exercise in. So what is my problem?!?! Am I just a big whiny baby that needs to suck it up and do the work?

YES! That is the exact answer, and I know it. The truth is that I have to get to the point where the reward of becoming fit, thin, and healthy out-weigh in my mind the sacrifice of my precious time. Clearly, I have not come to this realization/acceptance yet this time around. I want to. Because I know in my mind that a few months of a not-so-ideal schedule will go by quicker than it sounds and I will feel great with the results. I also know that once it becomes more of a routine, it won't bother me as bad. But for now, it has been an ongoing mental struggle with myself that I have been losing.

I am sorry that I lied and said I would start yesterday and then didn't. It's annoying and stupid. But clearly I just haven't had the fight in me to care enough yet. I know I will get it, because it makes me sad when I let myself down. I just don't know when it will finally kick in and I will sack up and quit making excuses and do what it takes to get the results I desire. I am really hoping/planning to still start P90X this weekend. We have a jam packed day tomorrow with work, showing the house, a charity crawfish boil, and I was really hoping to have time to squeeze in a pedicure (priorities, right?). So I'm not sure if I will start tomorrow or Sunday. I know deep down that I just have to make myself start, want to or not, and then just not let myself quit. 90 days will be over before I know it and I will be so happy and proud of myself for doing it.

So I don't want any "it's OK", or "don't be so hard on yourself" comments, because we all know I'm just being a slacker and it's time to either shape up or accept that I'm gonna remain fat until I do. Tough love and accountability is the theme of this post...

Oh, and on one positive note, I have been at least keeping my eating under control. We even did our usual Friday lunch at Abuelo's today, and I ordered shrimp fajitas and only ate 1 and asked them to not add any oil or butter when they cooked them. I did eat some of the chips and salsa & queso, but made it a point not to over-eat. I keep telling myself that if I could just get into the 160's soon, I know that would be just the motivation I need to get going again.

So here goes nothing...again...

I don't know if I'll have time to post tomorrow or not, but I will update on Sunday with what will hopefully be a positive weekend recap filled with success and a strong start!

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Golfin' Girl

Today was a pretty good day as far as the diet goes. I ate lots of fruits & veggies! All of the fiber made me super bloated though! I had a Fiber One Bar for Breakfast, a Pear for a Morning Snack, Grilled Chicken Stir Fry (not fried) LOADED with Veggies for Lunch, Grapes for Dinner, and some Crackers for an Evening Snack. All I wanted to do when we got done playing golf though was go to JJ's and get an ice cold Corona and a plate of Cheesy Fries with Bacon & Jalapenos...but we didn't! I stuck to the plan and just had a light snack to curb the hunger. I have to weigh in at the Dr.'s office tomorrow and I'm really hoping it doesn't show a weight gain. It might show a 1 pound gain or so though...bummer.

Since I haven't had a chance to practice golf since my last lesson because of the rain lately, I decided to cancel my lesson tonight and practice instead. Sky and I played our lovely 9 hole course here at the apartments. We walked it so I got some pretty decent exercise in. My legs are even a little sore and I'm pretty tired. I am actually improving quite a bit this year. Here's a happy picture of me right after I hit par on one of the holes. Granted, it was only a par 3 hole, 54 yards...haha!

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

I'm Alive!

I am so sorry! I have been the world's worst blogger lately! Thanks Nora & everybody else that reads this for not giving up on me! Life has just been so busy, and I have neglected my blogging :( I hate when that happens...when life gets so hectic that something's gotta give. A not-so brief catch up of the last week in my life---

I was pretty sick most of last week with a miserable ear & sinus infection! I'm all better now, thank goodness. I have been overwhelmed at work. I am fairly new to my position, and have been struggling to keep up with the new work load. It should slow down after next week I think/hope. It has been just mentally draining though, so all I want to do when I get home is pass out and not think anymore. Sky & I actually went to bed at 8:30 on Saturday! We were both just wiped out from constantly going, going, going. We ate like crap this weekend, because we knew we were about to make some changes...again. We had actually planned to play golf on Saturday and I was very excited, but it rained all day so we went to the bar with some friends instead. Smart exchange, right?!

I have been eating pretty healthy so far this week. I am still trying to get rid of stuff out of the pantry & freezer, but did grocery shop for some fresh items this weekend. I created a meal plan on Sunday for this week, and have stuck to it so far. I always do much better with a meal plan! And it is really exciting to be cleaning the kitchen out some! I organized the pantry and freezer this weekend and it felt great (yes, I'm a weird overly-organized freak!).

One exciting thing that has taken most of my free time the last 3 nights is I am finally finishing a couple of scrapbooks that I've been working on for months now! I'm almost done with them and they are turning out great! I L-O-V-E crafts! I wish I had more free time and all I would do is my crafts and work out! What hobbies are you into?

So are you tired of me always having a "new plan"? I have been so inconsistent the last couple of months, and it is shameful. But, as I promised last week, I am going to re-start P90X this week; Thursday to be exact! This will make Wednesday my off days, which is perfect because my golf lessons are usually on Wednesday's. Also, my annual check-up is this Thursday, so I will be weighing in at the Dr.'s, so it all seems to fall together nicely. I'm a bit embarrassed to go weigh in though, since I have only lost a couple of pounds since the last time I went in mid February. But oh well, we all need a break sometimes I suppose.

Unfortunately, my break has lasted way/weigh too long! I am starting to feel like I used to before I started losing weight with the whole "I'll do it tomorrow...or next week...or I'll start on Monday..." excuses, excuses, excuses! My only explanation is that I just got burnt out. I went at it hard and heavy for 6 months, and hit the 50 pound mark and then stopped. I am now starting to panic though because summer is creeping up on me, and I'm not going to be able to make my goal of 140 by August if I don't crank it into high gear! I don't want my lame excuses to turn into another 5 years of being a fatty!

I am a bit worried about starting again this week because it is a 6 day work week for me and I'm going to be busy and exhausted. But I have decided that I'm just going to have to tough it out because I will be tired & exhausted either way. Now I will just be tired & exhausted & exercised!

As I predicted before, I am too much of a systematic, anal retentive, type A personality that it really bothers me to not do P90X correctly. I am still going to give myself some leeway to skip some days and extend it longer than 90 days if I absolutely have to. But I am really going to try to just do it the right way. 90 days won't kill me...will it?! I might even just have to work out some mornings (eek! Did I just say that?!). I am so NOT a morning person. Plus, I don't even consider anything before 6:00am is still night time! :) But I have been reading several other P90Xers & Boot Campers blogs and they are way tougher than me and wake up at all crazy hours to get their work outs in! I really don't see me making mornings a regular thing, because I am pretty sure I might die, but I am trying to talk myself into it on the occasion that it will prevent me from skipping all together. And who knows; maybe I'll become a morning person?! NAH! That ain't gonna happen! :)

So here are some of my new commitments to hopefully get back on track and stay on track.
  • Begin P90X this Thursday
  • Continue Golf Lessons once a week
  • Start running 1-2 times a week again
  • Get back to counting calories
  • Cut out Diet Soda's (at least mostly)
  • Blog regularly again!
And the real Kickers that Sky has agreed to do with me...
  • Eating out twice a week or less (once together & once with friends)
  • Cut out random alcohol drinking (a beer after a long day, a glass of wine b/c it's Sat, etc)
The last 2 will probably be the hardest to adapt to. We kind of go in phases, so we just need to break some bad habits that we have re-developed. We have been spending way too much money on eating out lately, and we are on a 2 year plan to be debt free so we have to re-focus on our priorities. We aren't going to give up alcohol completely (although we should). But we are going to limit ourselves to only drink when we have a special occasion or event with friends (float trip, camping, party, etc). I have gotten to where I have been having a Corona Light or glass of wine 3-4 nights a week. Not to get drunk or anything; just because I like them and they were in the house. So now the house is empty of beer and wine (don't worry...I made sure they didn't go to waste this weekend).

The soda thing is something that I'm not sure how I feel about. I know all of the arguments against drinking even diet soda, but I have always thought of it as something that I enjoy that doesn't have any calories. I didn't buy any this week just to see how it goes. I have one Diet Pepsi left, and believe it or not, haven't been tempted to drink it yet. I'm mostly doing this to save the money, and to make myself drink more water. Plus, we have lots of sugar free Kool-Aid & tea in the pantry that I want to get rid of.

Wow! This is a really long post. Kudos to you if you actually made it this far! Sorry again for my lazy blogging lately...I promise to get back to my regular posting each night! I actually started this blog to learn how to blog because I am going to be launching a new one in a few months that I think will be very exciting and interesting (more details in the weeks/months to come). I guess if I want to learn though, I have to keep up with it, huh?

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Ruptured Ear Drum

Yep! I woke up at about 3:30 this morning with my ear throbbing. It took me forever to fall back asleep; and then I woke up this morning and it didn't hurt as bad anymore. I called my mom on my way to work and told her about it and she said it sounded like what used to happen when my ear drum would rupture when I was a kid. My sinuses are going crazy, and my ears are popping, my nose is raw, and I'm exhausted. My Doctor was able to get me in this afternoon, and sure enough, he said it was likely that my ear drum ruptured a bit last night, but he said it looks really bad now and like it could rupture again. He was pretty surprised that I'm not super dizzy because it looks so bad I guess. So he gave me some meds and I'm relaxing tonight!

I had 2 of my Fiber One Banana Nut Muffins for breakfast this morning. I ate 1/2 of a Regular Italian Sub from Quiznos, a few bites of a Steak Sub, Cheese Sun Chips, & 1/2 of a Large Chocolate Milkshake from McDonalds. For Dinner: 1 Antihistamine/Decongestant & 1 Antibiotic.

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Sick & Busy

To top off what will probably be my busiest week at work for the entire year...I am sick! I woke up Saturday morning with a scratchy throat and thought that maybe I snored or something. But then it didn't go away and then I started sneezing and coughing, and now my ears are hurting. LAME! Everybody at work got this a few weeks ago and I thought I was so lucky because I managed to stay healthy...but no...I just waited to get it when I was too busy to take any time off to rest. Oh well! I am looking at the bright side that I was planning to take this week off of working out anyways, so I guess if I have to be sick it might as well be this week when I'm not trying to workout.

P90X Plans
Speaking of workouts...I AM planning to get back to my P90X routine next week! I love the program, and I really want to do it right. I know it can/will work for me...and so I really want to focus on it with un-detoured motivation. I am spending my down time this week to do some planning to help set myself up for success. I have been at this crappy stand still with my weight for 2 months now and it is really pissing me off! It is my own darn fault, but I don't want to quit. I need to get that fire back under my ass that I had back in August, September, October, & November when I lost my first 50 pounds! (that was my pep talk to myself for the day)

I have done good so far today! I am starving right now and just too tuckered out to get up and make anything for dinner. Hopefully I stay strong the rest of the night and don't make any dumb choices!

I made my breakfast for this morning last night. It hit the spot!

Breakfast 8:15am
2 Fiber One Banana Nut Muffins

Lunch tried to turn into a catastrophe! I was going to make the last big potato in the cupboard for another baked potato. But...the microwave had other plans. The plate I was heating it up on busted into several pieces from the heat. I didn't want to take any chances that any of the shards of glass made it into the potato, so I threw it away and started over. After staring into the pantry, then the freezer, and back to the pantry again I started pulling out random ingredients that sounded ok and made myself a make-shift Rice & Bean Bowl. It turned out great and hit my never ending Mexican I'll call it a successful meal!

Lunch 1:00pm
Garden Vegetable Ready Rice, Kidney Beans,
Cilantro Lime Rotel, Black Olives, & Cheese
and a Sugar Free Peach Lemonade

So, I have been hungry since I got home and just don't have the energy to get off of the couch to make something to eat. I avoided all drive thru's on the way home, as tempting as they were. I was planning to make Lemon Rosemary Chicken with Roasted Red Potatoes & Boiled Carrots tonight, but that sounds like it would take way too much effort right now! So I just snacked on healthy options when I got home and just plan to go to bed soon and eat breakfast in the morning.

Snack 6:00pm
Lime & Mixed Berry Real Fruit Popsicle's

Monday, April 19, 2010

Busy, Busy, Busy

Wow we had a super busy weekend! It was exhausting! We went to MO to do some work on our house. We deep cleaned the inside, power washed the outside, planted a flower garden, mowed, and visited some friends and Sky's parents. When we got home last night we both passed out...and our alarms went off way too early this morning for our liking!

We ate on the run all weekend, so not very healthy...but we didn't have time to eat that much so it wasn't too terribly bad. I didn't have time to go grocery shopping this weekend so we are 'roughing it' this week and cleaning out the pantry & freezer some. So I probably won't be counting calories this week like I usually do. I still plan to eat as healthy as possible though, but I will be eating what we already have in the house.

It was actually kind of fun today, and dinner turned out really good! I made a baked potato for lunch and Mexican Chicken Pasta for dinner. Too many carbs, but not too bad on the calories. I used some 75% fat free cheese for the pasta, and it actually still turned out really good! Skyler even liked it and ate 2 bowls! I also made a box of Fiber One Banana Nut Muffins for breakfast in the morning. It feels so good to empty the pantry and freezer!

I also probably won't be working out much this week, unfortunately. I have a hellish week at work and don't want to overwhelm myself too much. My main goals are to just make it through the week and get as much rest as possible. I AM going to re-start P90X next week I'm thinking. I really do love that program, and I want to give it my undivided attention and let it work!

Thursday, April 15, 2010

Food Poisoning???

This is gonna be short and sweet today! I think I have food poisoning. My stomach is dying. I was going to get back to my P90X workouts tonight, but I have been sick since after lunch. Sky made chili for us the other night and he has been sick the last 2 days after eating it and I have just been making fun of him telling him his stomach hates him because he eats too much junk food. I didn't relate it to the chili because I know he eats like crap all the time. But then after the same thing happened to me today right after I ate the chili it dawned on me that that's probably what it is. I pulled the turkey burger out of the freezer and into the fridge only 2 days before we cooked it and made the chili though, so I can't think of what it could be. The only thing I can think is that we might not have put it in the freezer soon enough when we bought it or something. Who knows?! It just sucks and I want it to go away. Sadly, I haven't lost my appetite...

Golf Lesson #1

Yesterday was my first golf lesson for the year. I didn't do that great, but not too bad either. He said my back swing looks pretty good, but after that I've got a lot to work on! This week I'm supposed to focus on 3 main things:

1) Keep my head still
2) Follow through with my swing after contact with the ball
3) Close the club face as it strikes the ball

It sounds much simpler than it really is. Especially because I'm also trying to remember to get my approach right, to slow down, to let the club fall into place and not force it, etc. There is so much to learn and remember in this game! But for some reason, I really love it this year. Sky has been hooked for 3 years now I believe, and I have just been trying to get into it for him, but all of a sudden I really want to get good at it!

I didn't do very good on my diet all. I went to Abuelos with one of the girls in the office and then Sky wanted to eat at Steak-n-Shake for dinner. I am going to talk to him tonight about the idea of giving up eating out and maybe even drinking alcohol for a month. I really want to get back to P90X, and I want to be successful. We have also been eating out too much lately, which is way too expensive! We tend to go in spurts and then we pull ourselves back in and get back on track of eating out occasionally instead of regularly. It's time to get back on track again for the diet and the wallet! We'll see what Skyler says...

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Splitting Headache

My. Head. Hurts. It is Pounding!!! I worked so fast and furious today that I am just exhausted tonight! Early bedtime for me today!

FOOD - 1,676 Calories
I did pretty good on my calories today, mostly because I didn't have time to even think about being hungry! I definitely shouldn't have had the beers this evening, but I really needed to unwind after the day I had. Work is just so overwhelming right now! At least I didn't revert to my favorite guilty pleasure...MEXICAN FOOD!

Breakfast 9:00am - 290 Calories
Light Cherry Yogurt & 2/3 C Cinnamon Raisin Granola

I kind of grazed on lunch while I worked today. I'm pretty sure I only got one bite that was still warm.

Lunch 12:00 - 2:00pm - 310 Calories
Smart Ones Santa Fe Style Rice & Beans

Snack 3:00 - 5:00pm - 50 Calories
1 C Strawberries

My headache was getting pretty bad by the end of the day and I had my golf lesson, so I had a snack on the way hoping it would help me to feel better and have enough energy to get through the hour lesson.

Snack 5:15pm - 140 Calories
Fiber One Granola Bar

I was planning to make chili on my lunch break today so it would be ready for dinner, but I didn't have time to go home. Sooooo, I talked Skyler through it over the phone and he made a wonderful batch of chili for supper! Very weird to be eating chili when it's not winter time, I know, but I have been craving it and it's so healthy and easy and cheap!

Dinner 6:00pm - 886 Calories
1 C Chili, 1/3 C Cheese, 2 T FF Sour Cream,
1 oz Fritos, & 5 Crackers
with 4 Corona Lights (shame on me)

I was supposed to have my golf lesson tonight, but we showed up and he had the day off! He thought he had scheduled it for tomorrow, so we moved it to tomorrow. His boss offered to let us play for free tonight, but I was already feeling like crap and just wanted to crash anyways. So we came home and ate dinner and relaxed a bit.

I am a bit disappointed that I haven't done my P90X in a while, so I'm wondering if I should just start over later this week or keep going with where I left off. I haven't just been a skipper for the hell of it, but life is life. We'll see. I should probably just keep going since I knew this would happen and I wouldn't be able to do it every day. This is my stupid Type A perfectionist personality shining through. I get pissed when I can't do things perfectly so I want to start over.

Monday, April 12, 2010

Bad Day, Good Night

Today was plain awful! Work sucked, even worse than usual, I am PMSing, & I just wanted to be at home with Skyler. Buuuut, when I got home Sky & I had a lot of fun and I'm going to bed in a much better mood!

FOOD - 1,228 Calories
I did pretty descent on food today, just loaded up on carbs way too much! Not too worried though since I was in line with my calories.

Breakfast 10:00am - 120 Calories
2 servings Mini Caramel Rice Cakes

I was sulking on my lunch break and the only thing that sounded remotely good were these biscuits I found in the freezer. Kind of random...

Lunch 1:00pm - 360 Calories
2 Garlic Cheddar Biscuits

Afternoon Snack 3:00 - 5:00pm - 85 Calories
1/2 Orange & 1 C Strawberries

We were both too tired to cook tonight...but I still made a pretty good choice for eating out.

Dinner 6:00pm - 564 Calories
Buffalo Wild Wings Grilled Chicken Buffalitos
I ate 1 (like a Chicken Taco) with Medium Sauce 
with Chips & Salsa & a Corona Light

Sky & I enjoyed a beer on the balcony after we got home from the driving range. It was so nice to sit outside and enjoy the beautiful spring weather for a minute!

Night Cap 7:30pm - 99 Calories
1 Corona Light
(yes, he needs a haircut BIG time!)

So the plan for tonight was to go play our 9 hole golf course here at the apartments, but it was closed! Boo! So then we were going to just get a bucket of balls to hit at the driving range here...and the pro shop was closed! So then, third time's a charm, we went to another driving range and had a blast! I did so much better than I expected. Last year I kind of gave up because I sucked so bad and I got frustrated, so I kind of expected to suck today, but it wasn't too terrible. I actually hit my driver 200 yards, which is great for me! I was making good contact with most of my swings and started to get the hang of rolling my right wrist over so I didn't slice the ball. I am ready for my first lesson tomorrow! I hope I learn a lot and get better this year!

Need a Weeked Redo

I wish I could redo this weekend. I hate to see a weekend come to an end...especially when I did so bad on my diet. I'll get back at it tomorrow, but I really wish I wouldn't have taken those 2 steps back!

I was super busy today running errands, paying bills, & cleaning house so I didn't get my workout in. I have to get back on track tomorrow. I was doing so good and then just slacked off for no reason!

3 Chocolate Chip Pancakes (I finished about 3/4 of them)
with Sugar Free Syrup & Orange Juice

I took Sky lunch to work today:

1/2 of an 8" Corned Beef Sub from Firehouse with Jalapeno Chips

Nachos with Rice & Pinto Beans, White Cheese Sauce,
Homemade Salsa, Lettuce, & Guacamole

Again, not the most successful day diet-wise, however I did go grocery shopping to get more healthy food in the house and then I came home and prepped everything so I would actually eat it this week.

Wish me luck this week! I told Sky that I am working out tomorrow...period! Here goes another week on the P90X & Diet wagon!

Saturday Pedicure

Saturday didn't start off too bad, but I finished it off pretty bad...go figure...

Breakfast 9:00am - 215 Calories
Toasted PB&J: 2 pc Wheat Bread with
1 T Carb Options Peanut Butter & 2 T Sugar Free Strawberry Jelly

Snack 1:00pm - 140 Calories
Fiber One Chocolate Bar

Most importantly, I got a much needed pedicure yesterday and it was awesome!

Snack 3:30pm
1 C Mushroom Risotto

Sky & I went on a date Saturday night to try a restaurant that we heard was good...neither one of us were impressed though. I wasted too many calories on a crummy meal. I had 1/2 of a 1/2 order of Nachos and 3 Corona Lights.

I did get in a workout Saturday at least. I didn't do everything that I was hoping to, but I ran. Here is how that went....

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Friday Weigh In

As I suspected, I weighed in on Friday and lost some of the weight that I have recently put back on. Now I just have to stay committed to keep it off & continue losing! I tried on several pairs of shorts and capris this weekend that were too tight last summer, to see if they would fit now...and they don't...

Weekend of Shame Begins

Yep...I did it again. The weekend got here and I got stupid! Lame! I know! Here's what it looked like...

I was on the right track Friday morning...

Breakfast 8:30am - 300 Calories
Mountain Trail Mix

Snack 10:00am - 80 Calories
2 Mandarin Oranges
(I didn't eat the plums in the baggie)

Then lunch time rolled around and I did my usual "it's Friday & I'm tired and I deserve junk food" ordeal. I went out to Abuelos with one of the girls from the office. I ate way too many chips with salsa & queso and then had about 1/2 of my Mexican stack meal.

I wasn't really hungry for dinner because I ate too much at lunch, but Sky was so we went to Slim Chicken's.

Dinner 6:30pm
2 Chicken Strips with Medium Sauce & 2 T Ranch,
1/2 of the Fries, & a piece of Texas Toast

Dinner wasn't a great choice, but not awful until I decided to get Ice Cream afterwards...I know...I'm bad!

Snack 7:30pm
3/4 Peanut Buster Parfait from DQ


Thursday House Showing

Thursday didn't go quite as planned either, but I at least had a better excuse. I had been invited to a surprise birthday party after work. We were going to go get drinks and appetizers at Ruth Chris for happy hour. I had a plan in place to just order water and hang out for a bit and then head home to get my workout in (Sky was at work so he couldn't talk me out of it). :) Well...I stuck to the plan, ordered a water, and about 15 minutes into the evening my phone rang. Somebody called & wanted to see our house so I ended up driving to MO & back. It was an exhausting evening and I didn't get home until about 9:30, so I didn't get to workout again. But it was worth it if the house sells!

FOOD - 950 Calories
Not enough calories again on Thursday, but I just wasn't that hungry and I was very busy again!

Breakfast 9:00am - 200 Calories
Brown Sugar Oatmeal Express

Lunch 1:00pm - 720 Calories
Chicken Sandwich with 2 pc Wheat Bread, 3 pc Cheese,
1 1/2 Chicken Patties, 1 T Lt. Mayo, 1 T Ketchup,
& 3 oz Waffle Fries

Snack 5:15pm - 30 Calories
1 Plum

Wednesday Skipper

Wow I have so much catching up to do on here! I have really been slacking lately!

WEDNESDAY - 890 Calories
I actually didn't have enough calories on Wednesday, but I was super busy at work. Then, Sky talked me out of working out, so I didn't really need the extra calories for the workout. I didn't get hungry until it was too late to eat.

Breakfast 8:30am - 300 Calories
Mountain Trail Mix

Lunch 12:30pm - 300 Calories
Lean Cuisine Baja Style Chicken Quesadilla
with 1 T Salsa & 1/2 T Sour Cream

Dinner 4:30pm - 290 Calories
Lean Cuisine Cheese Lasagna with Breaded Chicken

That sums up my Wednesday! It was busy and I just crashed on the couch with Sky when I got home. I told him he is a bad influence though, because I had every intention of working out until he talked me out of it.

Saturday, April 10, 2010

Running Hurts!

Every time I run I am reminded of how much I'm not a fan! My run today probably wouldn't even be considered a warm up by a real runner. I walked to & from the gym, Ran for 10 min at a 5.5 speed on the Treadmill, walked for 5 min at 4.0, and then ran again for 5 more min at 5.5. This little "run" made my lungs feel like they were about to explode, gave me a headache, and made my legs sore again. I am just not made for running I don't think!

I am going to give up on the idea of ever running a 10K or 1/2 marathon. I don't like it enough to dedicate the time to training for either! I am going to continue running 1-2 times a week to get to the point that I can run/jog a 5K. I don't know that I will ever run in a race, but I do feel like I should be at a level of health that I can run a 5K fairly easily. So that is my new running be able to run a 5K, and maintain that progress. That's good enough for me!

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Bye Bye P90X Diet

I'm really not feelin this diet! I don't like most of the foods, and it is boring, and all it's doing is making me want to cheat. All I want right now is Nachos and a Beer, and I really have to focus on eating right so I can lose more weight. Soooo...I think I'm going to just focus on eating healthy and trying to eat fewer carbs like the program calls for right now...but no more of this stressful 5 proteins, 1 carb, 1 fruit, 2 veggies, blah, blah, is too exhausting and I'm not a fan. I know I might not get the exact same results as I could if I followed it to a T, but I guess that's the risk I'm willing to take. I was doing really good when I was losing weight before by just counting calories and not eating too late. I think it worked so well because I never felt deprived because I still ate what I wanted and not what some plan told me to eat. OK, enough ranting. Other than the diet part, I really do like P90X!

FOOD - 1,197 Calories
I didn't eat many calories today because I was super busy at work and then my dinner tasted like crap so I just gave up.

Breakfast 8:30am - 180 Calories
Light Cherry Yogurt w/ 1/2 C Kashi Go Lean Clusters

Snack 10:30am - 121 Calories
3 Mandarin Oranges
Yumm! I love Fruit!

My lunch was AWESOME! I will probably be making it again soon because it really hit the spot! I had to scarf it down though because I was in such a hurry trying to cook and weigh everything for lunch & dinner and then get back to work in one hour.

Lunch 12:00pm - 571 Calories
Turkey Burger atop 2 Pickle Slices, Shredded Lettuce,
Tomato Slice, 1 t Mustard, & 1 T Ketchup, topped with
1 sliced Mushroom, Onion Slices, Jalapenos,
& a piece of Chipotle Cheddar Cheese
Served with 1/2 of an Avocado & 1/2 C Black Beans

Dinner 5:30pm - 325 Calories
Salad with 2 oz Diced Turkey, 1 Boiled Egg,
2 Lt. Laughing Cow Cheeses, 2 T Diced Tomato & Jalapenos
 with 2 T FF French Dressing & 2 T FF Caesar Italian Vinaigrette

I made the salad with 2 oz Diced Ham & 2 oz Grilled Chicken but I got really sick of the taste of it so I just picked off enough of it to not be hungry anymore and threw the rest away.

My Recovery Drink came in tonight so I tried it. It isn't too bad, but I don't love it either. I will see if it works over the next few days I suppose. I think I'm going to try mixing it into a smoothie or something. I think I would like the flavor much better like that.

P90X Day 4: Today was Yoga, and I actually think that I like it. I was dreading it, but it wasn't too bad and kind of relaxing and felt good to stretch my sore muscles. I only did about 30 minutes of the 1 hour video because I kept getting interrupted. The final interruption was another call about our house that's for sale in MO, so I was too distracted after that and it was getting late so I called it a night. I paused it so I'm hoping to finish it this weekend. I hope I start to learn these routines so I don't have to constantly be cocking my head all awkwardly to try to see the TV.

Tomorrow's workout...Legs & Back & Abs...hopefully I can move my legs better tomorrow!

Not Sore Enough

I'm not sure I worked out hard enough yesterday, because my arms and shoulders aren't all that sore. Just a tid bit in my biceps & shoulders, but that is it. I'm thinking it's because it took me a while to figure out which weights were right for each exercise. Plus, my legs and ass were so sore that I might not have put as much effort into the workout as I should have; unintentionally of course! :) My Recovery Drink should come in today...yipee! I hope all of the online reviews are right; and that it tastes delicious and helps ease the pain! Hope everybody is enjoying this beautiful sun-shiny day!

Monday, April 5, 2010

Hot Tub for Aching Muscles

P90X Day 3 is officially under my belt! We sat in the hot tub for 10 minutes or so tonight to help loosen our muscles a bit. It worked great while we were in there, but they are back to being stiff again.

FOOD - 1,588 Calories
It feels so weird to type that and be ok with it. I'm so used to aiming for 1,200 calories that this is going to take some adjusting. I am actually pretty hungry right now, but it's way to late to be eating...I just need to go to bed!

I'm so sorry, but I don't have pictures again today! I forgot to take them at breakfast, and now my new memory card isn't fitting in the zip drive that I have, so I'm going to have to figure it out tomorrow hopefully.

Breakfast 8:15am - 470 Calories
Breakfast Burrito with: 1 Light Flatout Bread, 
2.5 oz Breakfast Turkey Sausage, 3 Eggs,
1 oz Reduced Fat Cheddar, & 2 T Salsa

I started getting a little hungry around 11:30, but didn't have a snack because I knew I was about to head home for lunch.

Lunch 12:30 - 553 Calories
Salad with 4 oz Grilled Chicken, 1 oz Craisins,
2 T Feta, 1 oz Pecans with 1/2 T Honey, &
1/4 C Homemade Light Ranch

I was looking forward to my afternoon snack!

Snack 2:30pm - 280 Calories
Snickers Marathon Chocolate Nut Burst Protein Bar

Dinner 5:00pm - 240 Calories
6 oz Baked Chicken with 1 C Green Beans

Dinner wasn't the least bit satisfying! I made one of those new instant rice in a cup's and it was gross!!! It even smelled bad...and I was looking forward to it too! I am not a huge chicken fan, so I'm going to have to learn how to be more creative if I'm going to stick to this diet. I love green beans, but I noticed tonight that the kind I have been getting is super high in sodium: 780mg for 1 cup...yikes! So I will be looking for a low sodium option next time.

I wanted a little treat after I sat down to rest for the night, so I had a small snack.

Snack 9:00pm - 45 Calories
Fruit Popsicle

I drank about 106 oz of water today! I'm hoping that I'm just swollen & retaining water still, because my weight is not going down and it is going to annoy me if that continues.

P90X Day 3: Shoulders & Arms. I skipped the Ab Ripper X because I'm pretty sure if I lay down I might not be able to get back up! haha...not really, but I am so sore and wore out, so I skipped the Abs for today. I might try to make it up on my rest day, we'll see. I was able to do all of the exercises today except for the very last one in the Bonus round; Side Tri Rise. I tried and maybe got 1/2 way up on my right side, but was too spent by then. Pretty successful workout, and I like this video pretty well.

I am so dreading tomorrow! I am always more sore on the second day, so I just know I won't be able to move. And tomorrow is! I know it's a freakin hardcore video and my legs are so stiff! I bet it will help to loosen me up though if I can just do it!

I really wanted to take a glass of wine to the hot tub tonight...but I didn't!!! Look at me go! Have a great day tomorrow!