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Friday, April 30, 2010

I Suck!

So I didn't post last night mostly because I was ashamed and embarrassed. I don't really want to right now either, for the same reasons, but one purpose of this blog is to hold myself accountable. So here goes...I haven't re-started P90X yet. I know, I suck! My excuse is that I was/am exhausted and last night I had a splitting headache because I was a moron and didn't eat all day until 4:00. But, those are just excuses, not acceptable reasons.

I do not know what my problem is this time. As I have said before, I usually get so addicted to working out and push so hard that I burn myself out. But for some reason this time around I can't seem to get motivated to work out for nothin! It's lame...but I just don't wanna! I much prefer coming home and putting my feet up on the couch and relaxing. (So say's the fat girl)

I have a sneaking suspicion that the main culprit holding me back is time; or lack thereof. To make it all work, I have to manage to eat dinner at work at around 4:00 so it has time to settle. By the time I get off of work around 5:15 or so and get home and change and head to the gym, it's around 6:00. Then, it's 7:30 by the time I finish the typical hour and a half P90X daily workout routine. Then another 30 minutes to an hour pass as I get back home, catch my breath for a minute, take a shower, and get ready for bed. So then I have from 8:30 - 11:00 while my hair dries to plan & prepare meals for the next day, blog, catch up on any house work/laundry/bills, get clothes laid out for the next day (Sky is a peach & irons them for me), and oh yeah...rest a bit and watch some TV. And with this, I'm still going to bed later than I would like to because by Friday I'm running on fumes.

Now, is this just me complaining about a problem that everybody else in the world has to deal with too??? YES! And I realize that. But geez...how do you cope with it? I mean I don't even have kids yet either! In all fairness though, we do have 2 houses in 2 different states we are trying to maintain which is exhausting. But everybody else has things that make their life busy, and they suck it up and manage to get their exercise in. So what is my problem?!?! Am I just a big whiny baby that needs to suck it up and do the work?

YES! That is the exact answer, and I know it. The truth is that I have to get to the point where the reward of becoming fit, thin, and healthy out-weigh in my mind the sacrifice of my precious time. Clearly, I have not come to this realization/acceptance yet this time around. I want to. Because I know in my mind that a few months of a not-so-ideal schedule will go by quicker than it sounds and I will feel great with the results. I also know that once it becomes more of a routine, it won't bother me as bad. But for now, it has been an ongoing mental struggle with myself that I have been losing.

I am sorry that I lied and said I would start yesterday and then didn't. It's annoying and stupid. But clearly I just haven't had the fight in me to care enough yet. I know I will get it, because it makes me sad when I let myself down. I just don't know when it will finally kick in and I will sack up and quit making excuses and do what it takes to get the results I desire. I am really hoping/planning to still start P90X this weekend. We have a jam packed day tomorrow with work, showing the house, a charity crawfish boil, and I was really hoping to have time to squeeze in a pedicure (priorities, right?). So I'm not sure if I will start tomorrow or Sunday. I know deep down that I just have to make myself start, want to or not, and then just not let myself quit. 90 days will be over before I know it and I will be so happy and proud of myself for doing it.

So I don't want any "it's OK", or "don't be so hard on yourself" comments, because we all know I'm just being a slacker and it's time to either shape up or accept that I'm gonna remain fat until I do. Tough love and accountability is the theme of this post...

Oh, and on one positive note, I have been at least keeping my eating under control. We even did our usual Friday lunch at Abuelo's today, and I ordered shrimp fajitas and only ate 1 and asked them to not add any oil or butter when they cooked them. I did eat some of the chips and salsa & queso, but made it a point not to over-eat. I keep telling myself that if I could just get into the 160's soon, I know that would be just the motivation I need to get going again.

So here goes nothing...again...

I don't know if I'll have time to post tomorrow or not, but I will update on Sunday with what will hopefully be a positive weekend recap filled with success and a strong start!

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Golfin' Girl

Today was a pretty good day as far as the diet goes. I ate lots of fruits & veggies! All of the fiber made me super bloated though! I had a Fiber One Bar for Breakfast, a Pear for a Morning Snack, Grilled Chicken Stir Fry (not fried) LOADED with Veggies for Lunch, Grapes for Dinner, and some Crackers for an Evening Snack. All I wanted to do when we got done playing golf though was go to JJ's and get an ice cold Corona and a plate of Cheesy Fries with Bacon & Jalapenos...but we didn't! I stuck to the plan and just had a light snack to curb the hunger. I have to weigh in at the Dr.'s office tomorrow and I'm really hoping it doesn't show a weight gain. It might show a 1 pound gain or so though...bummer.

Since I haven't had a chance to practice golf since my last lesson because of the rain lately, I decided to cancel my lesson tonight and practice instead. Sky and I played our lovely 9 hole course here at the apartments. We walked it so I got some pretty decent exercise in. My legs are even a little sore and I'm pretty tired. I am actually improving quite a bit this year. Here's a happy picture of me right after I hit par on one of the holes. Granted, it was only a par 3 hole, 54 yards...haha!

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

I'm Alive!

I am so sorry! I have been the world's worst blogger lately! Thanks Nora & everybody else that reads this for not giving up on me! Life has just been so busy, and I have neglected my blogging :( I hate when that happens...when life gets so hectic that something's gotta give. A not-so brief catch up of the last week in my life---

CATCH UP
I was pretty sick most of last week with a miserable ear & sinus infection! I'm all better now, thank goodness. I have been overwhelmed at work. I am fairly new to my position, and have been struggling to keep up with the new work load. It should slow down after next week I think/hope. It has been just mentally draining though, so all I want to do when I get home is pass out and not think anymore. Sky & I actually went to bed at 8:30 on Saturday! We were both just wiped out from constantly going, going, going. We ate like crap this weekend, because we knew we were about to make some changes...again. We had actually planned to play golf on Saturday and I was very excited, but it rained all day so we went to the bar with some friends instead. Smart exchange, right?!

I have been eating pretty healthy so far this week. I am still trying to get rid of stuff out of the pantry & freezer, but did grocery shop for some fresh items this weekend. I created a meal plan on Sunday for this week, and have stuck to it so far. I always do much better with a meal plan! And it is really exciting to be cleaning the kitchen out some! I organized the pantry and freezer this weekend and it felt great (yes, I'm a weird overly-organized freak!).

One exciting thing that has taken most of my free time the last 3 nights is I am finally finishing a couple of scrapbooks that I've been working on for months now! I'm almost done with them and they are turning out great! I L-O-V-E crafts! I wish I had more free time and all I would do is my crafts and work out! What hobbies are you into?

NEWest PLAN
So are you tired of me always having a "new plan"? I have been so inconsistent the last couple of months, and it is shameful. But, as I promised last week, I am going to re-start P90X this week; Thursday to be exact! This will make Wednesday my off days, which is perfect because my golf lessons are usually on Wednesday's. Also, my annual check-up is this Thursday, so I will be weighing in at the Dr.'s, so it all seems to fall together nicely. I'm a bit embarrassed to go weigh in though, since I have only lost a couple of pounds since the last time I went in mid February. But oh well, we all need a break sometimes I suppose.

Unfortunately, my break has lasted way/weigh too long! I am starting to feel like I used to before I started losing weight with the whole "I'll do it tomorrow...or next week...or I'll start on Monday..." excuses, excuses, excuses! My only explanation is that I just got burnt out. I went at it hard and heavy for 6 months, and hit the 50 pound mark and then stopped. I am now starting to panic though because summer is creeping up on me, and I'm not going to be able to make my goal of 140 by August if I don't crank it into high gear! I don't want my lame excuses to turn into another 5 years of being a fatty!

I am a bit worried about starting again this week because it is a 6 day work week for me and I'm going to be busy and exhausted. But I have decided that I'm just going to have to tough it out because I will be tired & exhausted either way. Now I will just be tired & exhausted & exercised!

COMMITMENTS
As I predicted before, I am too much of a systematic, anal retentive, type A personality that it really bothers me to not do P90X correctly. I am still going to give myself some leeway to skip some days and extend it longer than 90 days if I absolutely have to. But I am really going to try to just do it the right way. 90 days won't kill me...will it?! I might even just have to work out some mornings (eek! Did I just say that?!). I am so NOT a morning person. Plus, I don't even consider anything before 6:00am morning...it is still night time! :) But I have been reading several other P90Xers & Boot Campers blogs and they are way tougher than me and wake up at all crazy hours to get their work outs in! I really don't see me making mornings a regular thing, because I am pretty sure I might die, but I am trying to talk myself into it on the occasion that it will prevent me from skipping all together. And who knows; maybe I'll become a morning person?! NAH! That ain't gonna happen! :)

So here are some of my new commitments to hopefully get back on track and stay on track.
  • Begin P90X this Thursday
  • Continue Golf Lessons once a week
  • Start running 1-2 times a week again
  • Get back to counting calories
  • Cut out Diet Soda's (at least mostly)
  • Blog regularly again!
And the real Kickers that Sky has agreed to do with me...
  • Eating out twice a week or less (once together & once with friends)
  • Cut out random alcohol drinking (a beer after a long day, a glass of wine b/c it's Sat, etc)
The last 2 will probably be the hardest to adapt to. We kind of go in phases, so we just need to break some bad habits that we have re-developed. We have been spending way too much money on eating out lately, and we are on a 2 year plan to be debt free so we have to re-focus on our priorities. We aren't going to give up alcohol completely (although we should). But we are going to limit ourselves to only drink when we have a special occasion or event with friends (float trip, camping, party, etc). I have gotten to where I have been having a Corona Light or glass of wine 3-4 nights a week. Not to get drunk or anything; just because I like them and they were in the house. So now the house is empty of beer and wine (don't worry...I made sure they didn't go to waste this weekend).

The soda thing is something that I'm not sure how I feel about. I know all of the arguments against drinking even diet soda, but I have always thought of it as something that I enjoy that doesn't have any calories. I didn't buy any this week just to see how it goes. I have one Diet Pepsi left, and believe it or not, haven't been tempted to drink it yet. I'm mostly doing this to save the money, and to make myself drink more water. Plus, we have lots of sugar free Kool-Aid & tea in the pantry that I want to get rid of.

ARE YOU STILL READING???
Wow! This is a really long post. Kudos to you if you actually made it this far! Sorry again for my lazy blogging lately...I promise to get back to my regular posting each night! I actually started this blog to learn how to blog because I am going to be launching a new one in a few months that I think will be very exciting and interesting (more details in the weeks/months to come). I guess if I want to learn though, I have to keep up with it, huh?

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Ruptured Ear Drum

Yep! I woke up at about 3:30 this morning with my ear throbbing. It took me forever to fall back asleep; and then I woke up this morning and it didn't hurt as bad anymore. I called my mom on my way to work and told her about it and she said it sounded like what used to happen when my ear drum would rupture when I was a kid. My sinuses are going crazy, and my ears are popping, my nose is raw, and I'm exhausted. My Doctor was able to get me in this afternoon, and sure enough, he said it was likely that my ear drum ruptured a bit last night, but he said it looks really bad now and like it could rupture again. He was pretty surprised that I'm not super dizzy because it looks so bad I guess. So he gave me some meds and I'm relaxing tonight!

I had 2 of my Fiber One Banana Nut Muffins for breakfast this morning. I ate 1/2 of a Regular Italian Sub from Quiznos, a few bites of a Steak Sub, Cheese Sun Chips, & 1/2 of a Large Chocolate Milkshake from McDonalds. For Dinner: 1 Antihistamine/Decongestant & 1 Antibiotic.

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Sick & Busy

To top off what will probably be my busiest week at work for the entire year...I am sick! I woke up Saturday morning with a scratchy throat and thought that maybe I snored or something. But then it didn't go away and then I started sneezing and coughing, and now my ears are hurting. LAME! Everybody at work got this a few weeks ago and I thought I was so lucky because I managed to stay healthy...but no...I just waited to get it when I was too busy to take any time off to rest. Oh well! I am looking at the bright side that I was planning to take this week off of working out anyways, so I guess if I have to be sick it might as well be this week when I'm not trying to workout.

P90X Plans
Speaking of workouts...I AM planning to get back to my P90X routine next week! I love the program, and I really want to do it right. I know it can/will work for me...and so I really want to focus on it with un-detoured motivation. I am spending my down time this week to do some planning to help set myself up for success. I have been at this crappy stand still with my weight for 2 months now and it is really pissing me off! It is my own darn fault, but I don't want to quit. I need to get that fire back under my ass that I had back in August, September, October, & November when I lost my first 50 pounds! (that was my pep talk to myself for the day)

FOOD
I have done good so far today! I am starving right now and just too tuckered out to get up and make anything for dinner. Hopefully I stay strong the rest of the night and don't make any dumb choices!

I made my breakfast for this morning last night. It hit the spot!

Breakfast 8:15am
2 Fiber One Banana Nut Muffins

Lunch tried to turn into a catastrophe! I was going to make the last big potato in the cupboard for another baked potato. But...the microwave had other plans. The plate I was heating it up on busted into several pieces from the heat. I didn't want to take any chances that any of the shards of glass made it into the potato, so I threw it away and started over. After staring into the pantry, then the freezer, and back to the pantry again I started pulling out random ingredients that sounded ok and made myself a make-shift Rice & Bean Bowl. It turned out great and hit my never ending Mexican craving...so I'll call it a successful meal!

Lunch 1:00pm
Garden Vegetable Ready Rice, Kidney Beans,
Cilantro Lime Rotel, Black Olives, & Cheese
and a Sugar Free Peach Lemonade
Delicious!

So, I have been hungry since I got home and just don't have the energy to get off of the couch to make something to eat. I avoided all drive thru's on the way home, as tempting as they were. I was planning to make Lemon Rosemary Chicken with Roasted Red Potatoes & Boiled Carrots tonight, but that sounds like it would take way too much effort right now! So I just snacked on healthy options when I got home and just plan to go to bed soon and eat breakfast in the morning.

Snack 6:00pm
Lime & Mixed Berry Real Fruit Popsicle's

Monday, April 19, 2010

Busy, Busy, Busy

Wow we had a super busy weekend! It was exhausting! We went to MO to do some work on our house. We deep cleaned the inside, power washed the outside, planted a flower garden, mowed, and visited some friends and Sky's parents. When we got home last night we both passed out...and our alarms went off way too early this morning for our liking!

We ate on the run all weekend, so not very healthy...but we didn't have time to eat that much so it wasn't too terribly bad. I didn't have time to go grocery shopping this weekend so we are 'roughing it' this week and cleaning out the pantry & freezer some. So I probably won't be counting calories this week like I usually do. I still plan to eat as healthy as possible though, but I will be eating what we already have in the house.

It was actually kind of fun today, and dinner turned out really good! I made a baked potato for lunch and Mexican Chicken Pasta for dinner. Too many carbs, but not too bad on the calories. I used some 75% fat free cheese for the pasta, and it actually still turned out really good! Skyler even liked it and ate 2 bowls! I also made a box of Fiber One Banana Nut Muffins for breakfast in the morning. It feels so good to empty the pantry and freezer some...de-clutter!

I also probably won't be working out much this week, unfortunately. I have a hellish week at work and don't want to overwhelm myself too much. My main goals are to just make it through the week and get as much rest as possible. I AM going to re-start P90X next week I'm thinking. I really do love that program, and I want to give it my undivided attention and let it work!

Thursday, April 15, 2010

Food Poisoning???

This is gonna be short and sweet today! I think I have food poisoning. My stomach is dying. I was going to get back to my P90X workouts tonight, but I have been sick since after lunch. Sky made chili for us the other night and he has been sick the last 2 days after eating it and I have just been making fun of him telling him his stomach hates him because he eats too much junk food. I didn't relate it to the chili because I know he eats like crap all the time. But then after the same thing happened to me today right after I ate the chili it dawned on me that that's probably what it is. I pulled the turkey burger out of the freezer and into the fridge only 2 days before we cooked it and made the chili though, so I can't think of what it could be. The only thing I can think is that we might not have put it in the freezer soon enough when we bought it or something. Who knows?! It just sucks and I want it to go away. Sadly, I haven't lost my appetite...

Golf Lesson #1

Yesterday was my first golf lesson for the year. I didn't do that great, but not too bad either. He said my back swing looks pretty good, but after that I've got a lot to work on! This week I'm supposed to focus on 3 main things:

1) Keep my head still
2) Follow through with my swing after contact with the ball
3) Close the club face as it strikes the ball

It sounds much simpler than it really is. Especially because I'm also trying to remember to get my approach right, to slow down, to let the club fall into place and not force it, etc. There is so much to learn and remember in this game! But for some reason, I really love it this year. Sky has been hooked for 3 years now I believe, and I have just been trying to get into it for him, but all of a sudden I really want to get good at it!

I didn't do very good on my diet yesterday...at all. I went to Abuelos with one of the girls in the office and then Sky wanted to eat at Steak-n-Shake for dinner. I am going to talk to him tonight about the idea of giving up eating out and maybe even drinking alcohol for a month. I really want to get back to P90X, and I want to be successful. We have also been eating out too much lately, which is way too expensive! We tend to go in spurts and then we pull ourselves back in and get back on track of eating out occasionally instead of regularly. It's time to get back on track again for the diet and the wallet! We'll see what Skyler says...

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Splitting Headache

My. Head. Hurts. It is Pounding!!! I worked so fast and furious today that I am just exhausted tonight! Early bedtime for me today!

FOOD - 1,676 Calories
I did pretty good on my calories today, mostly because I didn't have time to even think about being hungry! I definitely shouldn't have had the beers this evening, but I really needed to unwind after the day I had. Work is just so overwhelming right now! At least I didn't revert to my favorite guilty pleasure...MEXICAN FOOD!

Breakfast 9:00am - 290 Calories
Light Cherry Yogurt & 2/3 C Cinnamon Raisin Granola

I kind of grazed on lunch while I worked today. I'm pretty sure I only got one bite that was still warm.

Lunch 12:00 - 2:00pm - 310 Calories
Smart Ones Santa Fe Style Rice & Beans

Snack 3:00 - 5:00pm - 50 Calories
1 C Strawberries

My headache was getting pretty bad by the end of the day and I had my golf lesson, so I had a snack on the way hoping it would help me to feel better and have enough energy to get through the hour lesson.

Snack 5:15pm - 140 Calories
Fiber One Granola Bar

I was planning to make chili on my lunch break today so it would be ready for dinner, but I didn't have time to go home. Sooooo, I talked Skyler through it over the phone and he made a wonderful batch of chili for supper! Very weird to be eating chili when it's not winter time, I know, but I have been craving it and it's so healthy and easy and cheap!

Dinner 6:00pm - 886 Calories
1 C Chili, 1/3 C Cheese, 2 T FF Sour Cream,
1 oz Fritos, & 5 Crackers
with 4 Corona Lights (shame on me)

FITNESS
I was supposed to have my golf lesson tonight, but we showed up and he had the day off! He thought he had scheduled it for tomorrow, so we moved it to tomorrow. His boss offered to let us play for free tonight, but I was already feeling like crap and just wanted to crash anyways. So we came home and ate dinner and relaxed a bit.

I am a bit disappointed that I haven't done my P90X in a while, so I'm wondering if I should just start over later this week or keep going with where I left off. I haven't just been a skipper for the hell of it, but life is life. We'll see. I should probably just keep going since I knew this would happen and I wouldn't be able to do it every day. This is my stupid Type A perfectionist personality shining through. I get pissed when I can't do things perfectly so I want to start over.

Monday, April 12, 2010

Bad Day, Good Night

Today was plain awful! Work sucked, even worse than usual, I am PMSing, & I just wanted to be at home with Skyler. Buuuut, when I got home Sky & I had a lot of fun and I'm going to bed in a much better mood!

FOOD - 1,228 Calories
I did pretty descent on food today, just loaded up on carbs way too much! Not too worried though since I was in line with my calories.

Breakfast 10:00am - 120 Calories
2 servings Mini Caramel Rice Cakes

I was sulking on my lunch break and the only thing that sounded remotely good were these biscuits I found in the freezer. Kind of random...

Lunch 1:00pm - 360 Calories
2 Garlic Cheddar Biscuits

Afternoon Snack 3:00 - 5:00pm - 85 Calories
1/2 Orange & 1 C Strawberries

We were both too tired to cook tonight...but I still made a pretty good choice for eating out.

Dinner 6:00pm - 564 Calories
Buffalo Wild Wings Grilled Chicken Buffalitos
I ate 1 (like a Chicken Taco) with Medium Sauce 
with Chips & Salsa & a Corona Light

Sky & I enjoyed a beer on the balcony after we got home from the driving range. It was so nice to sit outside and enjoy the beautiful spring weather for a minute!

Night Cap 7:30pm - 99 Calories
1 Corona Light
(yes, he needs a haircut BIG time!)

FITNESS
So the plan for tonight was to go play our 9 hole golf course here at the apartments, but it was closed! Boo! So then we were going to just get a bucket of balls to hit at the driving range here...and the pro shop was closed! So then, third time's a charm, we went to another driving range and had a blast! I did so much better than I expected. Last year I kind of gave up because I sucked so bad and I got frustrated, so I kind of expected to suck today, but it wasn't too terrible. I actually hit my driver 200 yards, which is great for me! I was making good contact with most of my swings and started to get the hang of rolling my right wrist over so I didn't slice the ball. I am ready for my first lesson tomorrow! I hope I learn a lot and get better this year!


Need a Weeked Redo

I wish I could redo this weekend. I hate to see a weekend come to an end...especially when I did so bad on my diet. I'll get back at it tomorrow, but I really wish I wouldn't have taken those 2 steps back!

I was super busy today running errands, paying bills, & cleaning house so I didn't get my workout in. I have to get back on track tomorrow. I was doing so good and then just slacked off for no reason!

Breakfast
3 Chocolate Chip Pancakes (I finished about 3/4 of them)
with Sugar Free Syrup & Orange Juice

I took Sky lunch to work today:

Lunch
1/2 of an 8" Corned Beef Sub from Firehouse with Jalapeno Chips

Dinner
Nachos with Rice & Pinto Beans, White Cheese Sauce,
Homemade Salsa, Lettuce, & Guacamole

Again, not the most successful day diet-wise, however I did go grocery shopping to get more healthy food in the house and then I came home and prepped everything so I would actually eat it this week.


Wish me luck this week! I told Sky that I am working out tomorrow...period! Here goes another week on the P90X & Diet wagon!

Saturday Pedicure

Saturday didn't start off too bad, but I finished it off pretty bad...go figure...

Breakfast 9:00am - 215 Calories
Toasted PB&J: 2 pc Wheat Bread with
1 T Carb Options Peanut Butter & 2 T Sugar Free Strawberry Jelly

Snack 1:00pm - 140 Calories
Fiber One Chocolate Bar

Most importantly, I got a much needed pedicure yesterday and it was awesome!


Snack 3:30pm
1 C Mushroom Risotto

Sky & I went on a date Saturday night to try a restaurant that we heard was good...neither one of us were impressed though. I wasted too many calories on a crummy meal. I had 1/2 of a 1/2 order of Nachos and 3 Corona Lights.

FITNESS
I did get in a workout Saturday at least. I didn't do everything that I was hoping to, but I ran. Here is how that went....

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Friday Weigh In

As I suspected, I weighed in on Friday and lost some of the weight that I have recently put back on. Now I just have to stay committed to keep it off & continue losing! I tried on several pairs of shorts and capris this weekend that were too tight last summer, to see if they would fit now...and they don't...

Weekend of Shame Begins

Yep...I did it again. The weekend got here and I got stupid! Lame! I know! Here's what it looked like...

FRIDAY
I was on the right track Friday morning...

Breakfast 8:30am - 300 Calories
Mountain Trail Mix

Snack 10:00am - 80 Calories
2 Mandarin Oranges
(I didn't eat the plums in the baggie)

Then lunch time rolled around and I did my usual "it's Friday & I'm tired and I deserve junk food" ordeal. I went out to Abuelos with one of the girls from the office. I ate way too many chips with salsa & queso and then had about 1/2 of my Mexican stack meal.

I wasn't really hungry for dinner because I ate too much at lunch, but Sky was so we went to Slim Chicken's.

Dinner 6:30pm
2 Chicken Strips with Medium Sauce & 2 T Ranch,
1/2 of the Fries, & a piece of Texas Toast

Dinner wasn't a great choice, but not awful until I decided to get Ice Cream afterwards...I know...I'm bad!

Snack 7:30pm
3/4 Peanut Buster Parfait from DQ

Shameful!

Thursday House Showing

Thursday didn't go quite as planned either, but I at least had a better excuse. I had been invited to a surprise birthday party after work. We were going to go get drinks and appetizers at Ruth Chris for happy hour. I had a plan in place to just order water and hang out for a bit and then head home to get my workout in (Sky was at work so he couldn't talk me out of it). :) Well...I stuck to the plan, ordered a water, and about 15 minutes into the evening my phone rang. Somebody called & wanted to see our house so I ended up driving to MO & back. It was an exhausting evening and I didn't get home until about 9:30, so I didn't get to workout again. But it was worth it if the house sells!

FOOD - 950 Calories
Not enough calories again on Thursday, but I just wasn't that hungry and I was very busy again!

Breakfast 9:00am - 200 Calories
Brown Sugar Oatmeal Express

Lunch 1:00pm - 720 Calories
Chicken Sandwich with 2 pc Wheat Bread, 3 pc Cheese,
1 1/2 Chicken Patties, 1 T Lt. Mayo, 1 T Ketchup,
& 3 oz Waffle Fries

Snack 5:15pm - 30 Calories
1 Plum



Wednesday Skipper

Wow I have so much catching up to do on here! I have really been slacking lately!

WEDNESDAY - 890 Calories
I actually didn't have enough calories on Wednesday, but I was super busy at work. Then, Sky talked me out of working out, so I didn't really need the extra calories for the workout. I didn't get hungry until it was too late to eat.

Breakfast 8:30am - 300 Calories
Mountain Trail Mix

Lunch 12:30pm - 300 Calories
Lean Cuisine Baja Style Chicken Quesadilla
with 1 T Salsa & 1/2 T Sour Cream

Dinner 4:30pm - 290 Calories
Lean Cuisine Cheese Lasagna with Breaded Chicken


That sums up my Wednesday! It was busy and I just crashed on the couch with Sky when I got home. I told him he is a bad influence though, because I had every intention of working out until he talked me out of it.

Saturday, April 10, 2010

Running Hurts!

Every time I run I am reminded of how much I'm not a fan! My run today probably wouldn't even be considered a warm up by a real runner. I walked to & from the gym, Ran for 10 min at a 5.5 speed on the Treadmill, walked for 5 min at 4.0, and then ran again for 5 more min at 5.5. This little "run" made my lungs feel like they were about to explode, gave me a headache, and made my legs sore again. I am just not made for running I don't think!

I am going to give up on the idea of ever running a 10K or 1/2 marathon. I don't like it enough to dedicate the time to training for either! I am going to continue running 1-2 times a week to get to the point that I can run/jog a 5K. I don't know that I will ever run in a race, but I do feel like I should be at a level of health that I can run a 5K fairly easily. So that is my new running goal...to be able to run a 5K, and maintain that progress. That's good enough for me!

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Bye Bye P90X Diet

I'm really not feelin this diet! I don't like most of the foods, and it is boring, and all it's doing is making me want to cheat. All I want right now is Nachos and a Beer, and I really have to focus on eating right so I can lose more weight. Soooo...I think I'm going to just focus on eating healthy and trying to eat fewer carbs like the program calls for right now...but no more of this stressful 5 proteins, 1 carb, 1 fruit, 2 veggies, blah, blah, blah...it is too exhausting and I'm not a fan. I know I might not get the exact same results as I could if I followed it to a T, but I guess that's the risk I'm willing to take. I was doing really good when I was losing weight before by just counting calories and not eating too late. I think it worked so well because I never felt deprived because I still ate what I wanted and not what some plan told me to eat. OK, enough ranting. Other than the diet part, I really do like P90X!

FOOD - 1,197 Calories
I didn't eat many calories today because I was super busy at work and then my dinner tasted like crap so I just gave up.

Breakfast 8:30am - 180 Calories
Light Cherry Yogurt w/ 1/2 C Kashi Go Lean Clusters

Snack 10:30am - 121 Calories
3 Mandarin Oranges
Yumm! I love Fruit!

My lunch was AWESOME! I will probably be making it again soon because it really hit the spot! I had to scarf it down though because I was in such a hurry trying to cook and weigh everything for lunch & dinner and then get back to work in one hour.

Lunch 12:00pm - 571 Calories
Turkey Burger atop 2 Pickle Slices, Shredded Lettuce,
Tomato Slice, 1 t Mustard, & 1 T Ketchup, topped with
1 sliced Mushroom, Onion Slices, Jalapenos,
& a piece of Chipotle Cheddar Cheese
Served with 1/2 of an Avocado & 1/2 C Black Beans

Dinner 5:30pm - 325 Calories
Salad with 2 oz Diced Turkey, 1 Boiled Egg,
2 Lt. Laughing Cow Cheeses, 2 T Diced Tomato & Jalapenos
 with 2 T FF French Dressing & 2 T FF Caesar Italian Vinaigrette

I made the salad with 2 oz Diced Ham & 2 oz Grilled Chicken but I got really sick of the taste of it so I just picked off enough of it to not be hungry anymore and threw the rest away.

My Recovery Drink came in tonight so I tried it. It isn't too bad, but I don't love it either. I will see if it works over the next few days I suppose. I think I'm going to try mixing it into a smoothie or something. I think I would like the flavor much better like that.

FITNESS
P90X Day 4: Today was Yoga, and I actually think that I like it. I was dreading it, but it wasn't too bad and kind of relaxing and felt good to stretch my sore muscles. I only did about 30 minutes of the 1 hour video because I kept getting interrupted. The final interruption was another call about our house that's for sale in MO, so I was too distracted after that and it was getting late so I called it a night. I paused it so I'm hoping to finish it this weekend. I hope I start to learn these routines so I don't have to constantly be cocking my head all awkwardly to try to see the TV.

Tomorrow's workout...Legs & Back & Abs...hopefully I can move my legs better tomorrow!

Not Sore Enough

I'm not sure I worked out hard enough yesterday, because my arms and shoulders aren't all that sore. Just a tid bit in my biceps & shoulders, but that is it. I'm thinking it's because it took me a while to figure out which weights were right for each exercise. Plus, my legs and ass were so sore that I might not have put as much effort into the workout as I should have; unintentionally of course! :) My Recovery Drink should come in today...yipee! I hope all of the online reviews are right; and that it tastes delicious and helps ease the pain! Hope everybody is enjoying this beautiful sun-shiny day!

Monday, April 5, 2010

Hot Tub for Aching Muscles

P90X Day 3 is officially under my belt! We sat in the hot tub for 10 minutes or so tonight to help loosen our muscles a bit. It worked great while we were in there, but they are back to being stiff again.

FOOD - 1,588 Calories
It feels so weird to type that and be ok with it. I'm so used to aiming for 1,200 calories that this is going to take some adjusting. I am actually pretty hungry right now, but it's way to late to be eating...I just need to go to bed!

I'm so sorry, but I don't have pictures again today! I forgot to take them at breakfast, and now my new memory card isn't fitting in the zip drive that I have, so I'm going to have to figure it out tomorrow hopefully.

Breakfast 8:15am - 470 Calories
Breakfast Burrito with: 1 Light Flatout Bread, 
2.5 oz Breakfast Turkey Sausage, 3 Eggs,
1 oz Reduced Fat Cheddar, & 2 T Salsa

I started getting a little hungry around 11:30, but didn't have a snack because I knew I was about to head home for lunch.

Lunch 12:30 - 553 Calories
Salad with 4 oz Grilled Chicken, 1 oz Craisins,
2 T Feta, 1 oz Pecans with 1/2 T Honey, &
1/4 C Homemade Light Ranch

I was looking forward to my afternoon snack!

Snack 2:30pm - 280 Calories
Snickers Marathon Chocolate Nut Burst Protein Bar

Dinner 5:00pm - 240 Calories
6 oz Baked Chicken with 1 C Green Beans

Dinner wasn't the least bit satisfying! I made one of those new instant rice in a cup's and it was gross!!! It even smelled bad...and I was looking forward to it too! I am not a huge chicken fan, so I'm going to have to learn how to be more creative if I'm going to stick to this diet. I love green beans, but I noticed tonight that the kind I have been getting is super high in sodium: 780mg for 1 cup...yikes! So I will be looking for a low sodium option next time.

I wanted a little treat after I sat down to rest for the night, so I had a small snack.

Snack 9:00pm - 45 Calories
Fruit Popsicle

I drank about 106 oz of water today! I'm hoping that I'm just swollen & retaining water still, because my weight is not going down and it is going to annoy me if that continues.

FITNESS
P90X Day 3: Shoulders & Arms. I skipped the Ab Ripper X because I'm pretty sure if I lay down I might not be able to get back up! haha...not really, but I am so sore and wore out, so I skipped the Abs for today. I might try to make it up on my rest day, we'll see. I was able to do all of the exercises today except for the very last one in the Bonus round; Side Tri Rise. I tried and maybe got 1/2 way up on my right side, but was too spent by then. Pretty successful workout, and I like this video pretty well.

I am so dreading tomorrow! I am always more sore on the second day, so I just know I won't be able to move. And tomorrow is Yoga...boo! I know it's a freakin hardcore video and my legs are so stiff! I bet it will help to loosen me up though if I can just do it!

SUCCESS OF THE DAY
I really wanted to take a glass of wine to the hot tub tonight...but I didn't!!! Look at me go! Have a great day tomorrow!

Everything Hurts!

Even my hairs hurt I think! haha! I am so stinkin sore...every single move is torture! But I love it! So much for what I assumed would be a great night sleep because of exhaustion. We both tossed & turned all night because we were in so much pain that we couldn't get comfortable. I can't wait for my Recovery Drink to get here so I can see if it really does help with the soreness. Here's to P90X Day 3...

Sunday, April 4, 2010

I L-O-V-E P90X Plyometrics

Am I crazy?! I love this video! I think it will be my favorite, and Skyler thinks it will be his least favorite. I started cramping from the complete insanity after we had only completed the warm-up. I didn't think I would be able to finish the video, but I pushed through and felt great afterwards! Now every time I sit down or stand up I scream in agony, but I just love it when my legs & butt are sore; it helps me to visualize what they might look like 90 days later! I would say I hung in there for about 75% of the workout.

I was planning to run today before the workout, but forgot...and thank goodness! This certainly isn't the day to add more cardio considering I can barely move right now. I really want to keep up with my 5K training, but am not quite sure when I will have time or energy to add it in. Any suggestions? I am also about to start my golf lessons up again (will be posting more on this later), so I'm gonna have to find time to squeeze that in too!

We were both craving pancakes this morning, so I had 3 small pancakes with light syrup and 3 oz of turkey breakfast sausage for breakfast/lunch. It was quite tasty and definitely hit the spot! I didn't get hungry again until about 5:00, after our workout so I had a Snickers Protein bar. It was very good (best protein bar I've tried so far), and it held me over until just a minute ago. I just had a small bowl of reduced fat popcorn and we are about to enjoy a movie and relax on the couch for a bit. One of the great side effects I am going to enjoy is the sound sleep at night. I am so exhausted that I will just crash the second I hit the pillow! I will be adding pictures back in tomorrow.

P90X Day 1...Sore Back & Shoulders & Abs...

We started P90X! Yesterday was day one; Chest & Back, & Ab Ripper X. I really didn't love the Chest & Back workout, because I can't do any pull ups and I hate push ups...so go figure! We are both so sore today though. Every time we lift our arms or try to sit up from laying down we complain...it's a good sore though! I could only complete maybe 1/3 of the Ab video, because I was already spent by the time I got to it. I definitely look forward to seeing some improvement over the next 90 days! I wonder if I will ever be able to do a pull up though???

We did good on the diet part all day yesterday until we met his parents in MO for dinner. They wanted to take us to a new restaurant they like, and guess what...the only 2 options were wings or burgers! So, we didn't do so great with dinner. I did however make myself skip the ice cream that I was craving all night!

I was glad to have day one under my belt for sure...but the diet part is very time consuming. I'm hoping I get quicker at it, but it was kind of stressful to track all of the components. I have taken my before pictures and measurements, and will wait to post them next month to have something to compare them to. I weighed in at 181...yikes! I've gained a few back, but I'm not too worried because it is just from eating anything and everything I wanted the past couple of weeks since I knew I was about to crack down again. 1 down, 89 to go...wish me luck!

Friday, April 2, 2010

Delayed Start

I'm a liar! I haven't started P90X yet. I didn't realize that Sky had to work today, and he doesn't get home until 7:30. So I really didn't want to start at 8pm. Plus, I haven't had time to meal plan and go shopping, so...tomorrow will officially be Day 1!!! Oh, and good news...my camera is fixed! So I will start posting pictures again. Have a great weekend & Happy Easter!